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[Nov. 20th, 2009|12:32 pm] |
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Emilyn,
Everything is possible. We should talk about this after Thanksgiving.
bai laoshi
>>> Emilyn Aguilar 11/20/2009 9:15 AM >>>
Bai Laoshi,
I thought a lot about what you said on Wednesday and now I am seriously considering putting a stronger focus on my Chinese studies and just doing a Bio minor. I was also wondering if you thought it might be possible for me to graduate in three years by doing so along with intensive summer and winter classes to meet the credit requirement for graduation. Also, do you think it would be likely for me to do an honors thesis?
谢谢，
关美 琳
Emilyn Aguilar |
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| 中文！ |
[Nov. 20th, 2009|01:04 am] |
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今天 我 给 了 我 妈妈 打 电话。 我 告诉 她 了， 我 要 学习 中文 的 我 的 职 业。 她 告诉 我 了， 中文 很 容易 也 我 应该 更加努力 也 学习 神经科学。 我 哭 了。 昨天 我 哭 了 很 多。 我 不 知道 为 什么， 但是 我 知道。 我 不 想 说 的 那。 我 希望 能 安心。 |
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[Aug. 25th, 2009|04:55 pm] |
im crawling out of my skin.
i just needa get back to school |
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[Jul. 16th, 2009|01:29 pm] |
through a series of events in my life that i haven't updated about on this here livejournal, i find myself a much changed person.
its not in the cool way though
i'm always out with good people doing good stuff
but i find myself completely withdrawn from everything
i dont know how i expect to be okay once school starts
but if im not positive, then theres really no hope |
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[May. 12th, 2009|02:10 pm] |
yeah so i've had a really rough year
bottom line
there are about 6 experts who i have been working with for a while that are really advising me to go to a psychiatrist because i have major depression have had it like my whole life, LOL
not to mention, a lot of shitty stuff has been happening in my life that i cant control
my mom had a miscarriage and that sucks ;_;
among other things
anyway
thats stuff
everybody around me is leaving to different states its crazy
but im excited to have like, that much more places to stay at when i travel
most of them are northeast anyway
except for some of my housemates, who are going to like, latin american countries
mike is great and supportive
and moving to brooklyn!
for someone who lives so far at the moment, i think i see him a good amount
i would really like to go and visit provi again, but he won't be there by the time i get back from china and i cant stay with tom
did i mention that the last time i was leaving from there, adge and i got into a hella fucked up car accident on 1-95?
so i might do a boston trip instead, stay with ian or something, meet up with some more peeps, and go from there
i am excited for china, but absolutely not prepared
but i am meeting up with bill fig and zac there!!
which is way awesome
pretty much i think i am moving to philly next summer and getting a job as a lab assistant at drexel because i am in contact with a dude who said he'd give me a job
stuff stuff stuff etc etc
maybe i'll work harder on my next lj update
I end with this quote from Mike:
"You're just really unlucky and you don't ever pay attention!" |
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| "just take care of yourself ok?" |
[Apr. 15th, 2009|12:48 pm] |
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oh man, I've gotten those exact same words from two different people, and a bunch of different variations of it within the past two days. life is ridiculous. Emilyn bashes back. |
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[Apr. 7th, 2009|11:11 pm] |
Life is weird.
But I love my housemates!!! So much. I'm so effing glad i applied to live in la casa. I get to learn so much awesome stuff about latin american culture and ugh its awesome.
that's all for now. |
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| Crazy shit happened to me all in one day |
[Apr. 3rd, 2009|07:10 pm] |
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- "I'm the kind of person that believes that they can truly love ten people at a time...I know a lot of people don't agree with that, but I'm actually really not even sure that I want to change that." i.e. what have I gotten myself into..?? I have a real "boyfriend" now, and of course it's complicated. I don't have a good grasp on what a real relationship is anyway.
- My mom is pregnant with TRIPLETS. I'm serious.
- I dropped outta chem. I love it so much, but I can't handle it right now and I'm just gonna take a summer equivalent class
- Through the new NIH package, Im gonna try and get a job at a science lab over the summer possibly in Philly or NY
- I'm gonna be in China from May 30th to July 2nd
- The landlord to our restaurant in Brooklyn OD'ed and died
- It's hard for me to ever leave Adrienne's bed. She rode off with a guy in a motorcycle today. And I took a black and white picture.
- I'm doing fun-a-days. You do something once a day, and document it. I'm liberating things a day. And taking photos of it with a black and white disposable that I liberated.
haha. god, that's my life.
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[Apr. 2nd, 2009|03:53 pm] |
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maybe i was just being really paranoid?? |
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[Apr. 1st, 2009|07:21 am] |
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i feel totally manipulated. |
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[Mar. 5th, 2009|07:32 pm] |
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um wtf i dont even know how i got this lj icon and wtf is it even from but whatever.......
i had a dream in chinese two nights ago and bai loashi told me that when you start dreaming in chinese is when you start internalizing the language
this is a milestone in my life
granted it was very simple words and phrases
but still very exciting
IM SO EXCITED FOR PROVI!!!!!
Check out these funny convos between me and AdgeAdge: haha right 3 dayyyyyyyssssssss!!! me: I KNOW!!!!!! 12:12 AM FUCK YEAH Adge: AHHHHH me: OMG IM SO PUMPED Adge: me too me: IM SO GLAD YOURE EQUALLY AS PUMPED Adge: and im so glad that we are on the same level of excitement HAHAHHAHAHA me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Adge: YESSSSSSSSSS me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAH HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH Adge: HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA HAHHAHAHHAHA me: I CANT EVEN Adge: omg i love you you are perfect for me jhahahahha-------------------------------------- 3:25 PM Adge: are you coming to pan af? me: oh fuck no i just got up Adge: well its not for a little bit 3:27 PM do you want to get dinner once I get out? 3:34 PM Adge: emilyn? 3:43 PM Adge: i bet you fell asleep AND I TOTALLY DID! HAHahahaha |
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| I wanted to say, "why the long face?" |
[Mar. 3rd, 2009|05:27 pm] |
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so pretty much power shift sucked
i really do hate liberal environmentalists haha
it was just so fucked up
and it was funded by fucking walmart!!! wtf man!!!
plus they werent allowing people into workshops because there was too many people
and the only two workshops i went to effing sucked
they were just way too basic
i didn't even end up going to the action on monday
it was just like too lame
but whatever, i had maybe two good moments this weekend
so that's good enough
i got to see all my friends from around the country and that was way cool
and everyone that i've been on conference calls with were all in room just kickin' it not even talking about sds
really kokology is the worst thing to play with anarchists haha
i tabled for sds a whole bunch
and even though im really shy, ive gotten to be awesome at tabling
i ate strip club chinese yummmmmmmm
and played with cats
and i came back to my housemates who gave me great big hugs
also, wtf
i told my roommate that her friend was allowed to sleep in my bed
and they killed my fern?!? i don't really care except my fern is dead now
weve been doing a lab in bio for five weeks and taking a picture every week.
whatev
here are pictures taken from a microscope of something that once was
i took care of it from spore to fuckin sporophyte
;_;
( RIP Fern )
i hate panera bread.
I am, however, liking all the guy attention i'm getting. it's refereshing. i shouldn't need verification from another person to tell me to feel good, but i do and idgaf. it's cool.
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[Feb. 26th, 2009|10:49 pm] |
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dudes, nothing turns me on more than a white guy that speaks spanish. DO ME. |
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| goodbye my love, i think i knew it all along |
[Feb. 25th, 2009|12:48 am] |
i skipped a class today and convinced adrienne to do so also
we went into town and she got a haircut and i got a sandwich
i've fallen in love with volver again
were discussing it in my first year seminar and ahaha omg
its just like, so good and a movie about women
all the men in it are either dead or completely irrelevant
i totally feel like my mom. men are so worthless! haha
nothing significant in my life has happened to make me feel that way, but srsly
it's so true every time i think about it
even the totally awesome and sensitive to your needs radical men can be so patriarchical
but whatevs
love hot radicals.
i dropped out of my english class! a weight has been lifted
hopefully when i take it the next half of the semester i'll be fine
adge and i are doing a roadtrip over spring break. javascript:void(0);we're totally going to provi!!!! and boston!! i can't wait to see all my friends there. woooooooo.
( this is the cutest e-mail ever that robin sent me )
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| give me the greenssss of summerrrrrr |
[Feb. 23rd, 2009|11:52 pm] |
um so yeah life is a black hole and it totally sucks
whatever i have like a bajillion online crushes with sdsers i feel like im in middle school again haha
i had a very crazy weekend
went to an american psycho party and went all out with blood paint on my face and i was pretty much the only one dressed up
oh and i finally got some action with a real cutie but was totally turned off when he called me beautiful. yuck.
i am now being put on the highest dosage of prozac before i can be considered like, clinically insane haha
i might be arrested this coming monday and i'm afraid to tell my mom =X
oh and im seeing maya angelou with matt on wednesday!!
im officially going to double major in neuroscience and chinese which means that i automatically get 4000 dollars a year from the pell grant.
etc, etc ive pretty much gone crazy. let me sleep forever already.
p.s. sabias que?...did you know that dueling is paraguay is legal so long as both parties are blood donors?
i miss my dogs. |
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| still crazy after all these years... |
[Feb. 15th, 2009|06:46 pm] |
I've been having so many dreams lately. Last night, I dreamt that I had meaningful sex. It was so much more fulfilling than i had thought it to be. Anyway, I just ended waking up really sad but a little bit fulfilled because now i know what it can feel like.
Speaking of crazy dreams, I had a dream in which a shark was swimming towards me with a wave of water at my moms restaurant in brooklyn. I, however, was saved by two giant seagulls that attacked the shit out of it and turned it into a bloody mess.
In other news, since I have just been all ups and downs lately, i've gotten back to painting and drawing!! I really didn't realize how much it helps me sometimes! It's so great. It put me in such a great mood today while i was like, sulking in the dark by myself because i like natural light and my roommates gone for the weekend. hahahaha.
Here's a really funny e-mail that my fys prof sent out to the class
HELLO EVERYONE, JUST A QUICK REMINDER THAT WE ARE MEETING IN THE LIBRARY TOMORROW FOR OUR CLASS. YOU NEED TO BRING YOUR LAPTOP. ALSO, YOU CANNOT BE LATE SINCE WE WILL BE PROMPTLY GOING INTO A LIBRARY ROOM SOMEWHERE (BUT I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE!). SEE YOU ALL TOMORROW, MCM
I've been having a lot of issues with patriarchy lately.
Well, at least Christa's come back to my life at Drew. Yayyyyyy.
I fear I am going crazy.
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| She's got a silk dress and healthy breasts that bounce, on his Italian leather sofaaaa |
[Feb. 12th, 2009|12:57 pm] |
After three years of failure,
I've successfully quit smoking!!
how fucking crazy is that?!
A lot of it had to do with me wanting to(obv), then me feeling really terrible about the recession and our family business that i totally shouldnt be spending any fucking money on that shit!
I've also moved into La Casa Latina here on campus. And I still feel really white and out of place, but hopefully that'll change. Everyone's really awesome and nice but I'm just not at a complete comfort level yet. My new roommate is INSANE and it's so awesome! hhaha
I have a HUGE crush on my English prof. Hahahahah. Something about English majors' wit! SRSLY.
My research paper is going to be on patriarchy in a radically progressive activist community. FUCK THE PATRIARCHY!!!!!! I've come to the realization that obv I'm really into writers but they def have to understand my activism. If not, shit's fucked! Plus, activists are hot. Also, they're sensitive to your struggle and your needs. Hahahahha.
Whatever, I'm too busy in my life to even think about having a relationship. Except last night, I had a dream that this activist friend of mine just *hugged* me and braided and played with my hair after i showered. Hahahah. I woke up pretty sad. Also, I'm having a terrible time trying to shower. like Frances McDormand in Friends with money. And it's weird because I used to totally go out of my way to shower at like 3 in the morning even when I didnt get sleep.
Either way, I had another crazy dream that we Americans fucking started World War III and there were like all these neo-nazis?!?! And America was having a parade. And i was like "WHAT ARE YOU GUYS CELEBRATING!!! NOTHING GOOD COMES FROM WAR!!!" HAHAHAhaha. Also, there was this yarn on the floor that I was trying to pick up because I was knitting. And someone came and was like "THE STITCH YOU'RE USING TO MAKE THIS SCARF IS THE SAME AS THE ONE USED IN WWII!!!!!!!"
Matt came to visit and it was fucking awesome last weekend. While last semester I was home like two weekends a month, I don't think I'll be back in Brick til March for spring break. And then who knows?!?! ALABAMA?!?!
Man, I was pretty depressed yesterday but now I feel as if a weight has been lifted. Since I don't have class for the rest of the day.
My life is so very busy but hopefully i'll reach equilibrium.
I think I'm going to China this summer!! Bai Laoshi says that I could pretty much double major in Neuroscience and Chinese and be totally fluent in Chinese by the time I graduate.
I've also joined the Pan-Af choir--Ubuntu! Also, I'm gonna join this foreign conversation thing!! So excited! Wooooo
also, lol this is my blog for my first year seminar.
http://emilyn.blogspot.com/
See y'alls later.
P.S.
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| All these people drinking lover's spit; swallowing words while giving head. |
[Feb. 11th, 2009|09:50 pm] |
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I 've had maybe a whole 2 hours of free time all day since 8 am
I'm basically not even a real person anymore
CAROL, YOU'RE SUCH A FUCKER. What kind of counselor tells you at the last minute that she's scheduled someone else to your time slot? |
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| here comes a better version of me |
[Jan. 28th, 2009|12:36 am] |
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Livejournal tells me I haven't posted anything in half a year. I haven't disappeared, obv. I've just been really busy. But I have been reading everybody's updates still.
Let's see......
Since June a lot of things have changed
I don't remember my summer but it was crazy and weird and I became close with more people etc etc
SCHOOL.
Well hello I just finished my first semester at Drew and it was effing crazy.
yeah so i wrote that a couple of weeks ago and it was on autosave. I'm getting too lazy to write a full update right now. I just wanna say, I'm feeling really awesome right now and I'm so glad to be back at school. I am going to be busy with so many things in this semester, like i was last semester. Hope all is going well with the rest of you.
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| your heart is always almost beating. |
[Jun. 16th, 2008|12:02 am] |
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It's not worth it to me anymore
not when i have to wait around a couple of days
for something that can be done in ten minutes
pretty soon, i'll be using the words
"I don't wish to speak to you anymore.
Not for a long while."
My Tia Juana is really funny. She doesn't speak much English at all, but she learns in the funniest ways. She'll call any small dog Romeo, and any big dog Rocky. And one time, we were gonna go and by some cake, so she shouted "CHEESECAKE FACTORY!!", because we had eaten there earlier in the week. Sometimes I think I am like her. She's always smiling and totally crazy, but really, I think I'm a lot like Abuelita.
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